was i meant to go away so you can ask me to stay

was i meant to go away so you can ask me to stay
would it be okay if i never come back again
is time to leave, for bluer skies and fresher air
is it true that i am just running away

for a better change and maybe, a new love affair
for our salad days should not come to waste
to a place strange, quaint, far away
to a land i could discover without a care

was i meant to go away so you can ask me to stay
i could try to stay once but my heart is barely there
i would then go away and never come back again

pain and fear.

pain and fear.
fear of pain.
pain of fear.
fear as a result of pain.
pain caused by loss.
loss and betrayal of trust.
distrust leading to fear
fear nurturing pain

and here we go again.

from the words of Pink Floyd

So, so you think you can tell

Heaven from Hell,

Blue skies from pain.

Can you tell a green field

From a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade

Your heroes for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

And did you exchange

A walk on part in the war

For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls

Swimming in a fish bowl,

Year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found?

The same old fears.

Wish you were here. 

Wish you were here - Pink Floyd, 1975

i will dance in the rain

when all's been said and done
when no words can be undone
you chose to walk away
your last gift to me was the darkest day

and it started to rain
like the heavens felt the pain

all the memories were far too perfect
how could i let go and choose to forget
all the promises you never fulfilled
are now just flowers waiting to wilt

and then came the rain
let the heavens wash away my pain

my dreams died when you said goodbye
my being lost its zest for life
desperately i cried out for release
patiently i wait for healing

and it rained
the heavens conquered my pain

the past i lay behind
the future lies ahead shall be mine
surreal as it may seem
so real is the new strength in me

and in this rain, i will dance
till the storm is over, i will dance

Far Away - her & his

from: her
to: him
date: Sun, Aug 1, 2010 at 2:58 AM
subject: far away

i need to be needed
i need to be wanted
when u r so far away
its unfair

i dress up for nobody
all made up but hangout with nobody
when u r so far away
i don't feel like u care

i'd think about how things were fine
you left me wondering
why you'd have to say yes to
be miles and miles away


from: him
to: her
date: Sun, Aug 1, 2010 at 2:28 PM
subject: far away

I need you
I want you
And when I am so far away
I do not need or want you any less,

Dress up because you are pretty
Hang out with those you hold dear
And when I am back
I can remind you how much I care

I'd like to think that things are still fine
I said yes to be miles and miles away
so I can be a better person that can one day
bring you miles and miles away with me.

I love you honey.

(: