i look at my life
i feel messed up
i think about my past
i got nothing but disgust
where i'm sitting now there's a pile of rubbish on my desk
what's in my head now its running away without cares
defeated, unmotivated, hate
wishing, wanting, waiting for change

how do i come to Him in a state like this
how do i have faith that I'm a child of His
how do i go on living, so that i can be happy, at least